grizzle, drizzle, fizzle

I am getting tired, feeding kittens all through the nights for the last wee while is taking its toll. And I am afraid we are going to lose the middle kitten too. I have done everything I can, but yesterday he began to fail and sit hunched over, although I feed him tiny drinks frequently he is not choosing to eat now. I have to force him to drink now.

The Marmalade kitten, who arrived big and strong and loud is streaking ahead. I am considering the possibility that he is older than the others and  not even from the same litter. The little fella is voracious and has never looked back. He has a big thirst for life.  We should applaud this but always we feel sad for the little sick ones. Our failures loom into our bright successes blocking out their sun.

I feel I am letting you down when we were so high on the delight of it – rescuing these wee cats and now things are going wrong. I spoke to the vet and as usual he asks a few questions and says  – Just keep doing what you are doing and see how he is tomorrow.

So tomorrow I am taking the day off from the blog. I need to regroup and find my happy again.  I have not even had time to answer all your glorious comments – I do apologise. It is not only the cats, I think I am tired and achy and aimed straight at a Washing Basket Moment if I don’t give myself a stern talking to. Did I mention that cats make my nose run, my eyes itch and my head hurt? This is why I don’t have inside cats anymore. I have worked hard this summer, filling the freezers and cellar with food, winter is coming and I am not ready.  I need to get the tractor out tomorrow and concentrate on the barn and bringing the ark across and work on the gardens and shift the pig fence.  Already I feel better confessing this all to you. Writing lists helps they say.

I hope you all have a good day.

I promise to be back on form tomorrow.

love your friend, celi.

ps, Just out of interest here is the Daily View exactly a year ago. Here is the walkabout post from that day. I need to mow the lawns as well.

And this post is from two years ago.  Ah yes we go back that far many of you and I.

c