I am getting tired, feeding kittens all through the nights for the last wee while is taking its toll. And I am afraid we are going to lose the middle kitten too. I have done everything I can, but yesterday he began to fail and sit hunched over, although I feed him tiny drinks frequently he is not choosing to eat now. I have to force him to drink now.
The Marmalade kitten, who arrived big and strong and loud is streaking ahead. I am considering the possibility that he is older than the others and not even from the same litter. The little fella is voracious and has never looked back. He has a big thirst for life. We should applaud this but always we feel sad for the little sick ones. Our failures loom into our bright successes blocking out their sun.
I feel I am letting you down when we were so high on the delight of it – rescuing these wee cats and now things are going wrong. I spoke to the vet and as usual he asks a few questions and says – Just keep doing what you are doing and see how he is tomorrow.
So tomorrow I am taking the day off from the blog. I need to regroup and find my happy again. I have not even had time to answer all your glorious comments – I do apologise. It is not only the cats, I think I am tired and achy and aimed straight at a Washing Basket Moment if I don’t give myself a stern talking to. Did I mention that cats make my nose run, my eyes itch and my head hurt? This is why I don’t have inside cats anymore. I have worked hard this summer, filling the freezers and cellar with food, winter is coming and I am not ready. I need to get the tractor out tomorrow and concentrate on the barn and bringing the ark across and work on the gardens and shift the pig fence. Already I feel better confessing this all to you. Writing lists helps they say.
I hope you all have a good day.
I promise to be back on form tomorrow.
love your friend, celi.
ps, Just out of interest here is the Daily View exactly a year ago. Here is the walkabout post from that day. I need to mow the lawns as well.
And this post is from two years ago. Ah yes we go back that far many of you and I.
c
The Kitchen's Garden 
64 responses to “grizzle, drizzle, fizzle”
Thinking of you C. You are not letting anyone down – certainly not those little kittens.
I felt that tug at my heart, and it wasn’t from the cats. I reckon you need to accept that you can’t do everything, c, and if it’s not finished/done then it just wasn’t meant to be done right now.
Take a blog break. I now your heart is heavy as is your soul over the loss and illness of the kitties. Mowing can wait. God and mother nature let the grass grow so sometimes – we just need to let it be.
As for letting anyone down, you definitely need to put that thought away. We ache with you and we celebrate with you = we are friends of the electronic kind = but still friends. Hugs, and prayers from Texas.
Oh Celi, what heart wrenching news. I am sending lots of healing love and happy energy for our middle kitty and more importantly you.
Much love for a happy day,
🙂 Mandy xo
You, my dear C, deserve to take some time for yourself, to recoup, to rest, to reflect. You work so hard and give the Farmy your all because you care so deeply and believe. But there must be a balance. And that you recognize that is a good thing. Sweet dreams, darling. We will always be here for you, no matter the mood.
HI Celi! I agree with RecyclerSA. Please do take care of YOU! I would much rather you take time for yourself, take a long bath, go out somewhere with Our John and relax and regroup. I don’t like the thought at all of you heading for a Washing Basket Moment. That makes me…well, no doubt all of us sad. Take time for yourself. We will always be here loving you! xo
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i wish I could post a picture to help brighten up your day
Please take care of yourself. You do everything you can (and more) on a daily basis. Your posts do so much for all your readers. Take a personal day or more to rest yourself.
Hugs my sweet friend. Do get some rest. You are doing everything you can. We love you! XOXO – Bacon
Life has a mind of it’s own, doesn’t it, sometimes I think we’re just along for the ride? I will pray for your little kittens, c, this must be so heartbreaking. Rest and rest some more.. xx
Dunkirk spirit Celi.
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I never tried to do this but never knew cats were so fragile, is there a reason, has there mom abandoned them? I probably missed out an important post there 😉
Good luck with the work!
Dear Celi, when you need a washing basket moment, go ahead and take one — this, too, will pass. By sharing Boo’s kittens with us, you have extended and multiplied the joy their lives have given you and Boo. Boo’s kittens have generated so much delight and compassion in our lives and their lives, however short, were better for your care — even the littlest one took some steps and had the comfort of its siblings and surrogate Mom. As someone said above, each of us needs rest — that’s what sleep is for. Rest up and we’ll see you when we see you. Love, Sharyn
You can only do what is possible and I’m sure you’ll do everything you can 🙂
Apparently litters of kittens can have different fathers. When a female cat is in heat it will allow all male suitors.
I just have to ask – are the kittens, um, eliminating as they need to? Sometimes a momma cat will lick the kittens bellies and butts to sort of get them going – you can do this with a terry cloth washrag… but I’m sure you know all this. Hang in there… and take care of yourself!!