I am getting tired, feeding kittens all through the nights for the last wee while is taking its toll. And I am afraid we are going to lose the middle kitten too. I have done everything I can, but yesterday he began to fail and sit hunched over, although I feed him tiny drinks frequently he is not choosing to eat now. I have to force him to drink now.
The Marmalade kitten, who arrived big and strong and loud is streaking ahead. I am considering the possibility that he is older than the others and not even from the same litter. The little fella is voracious and has never looked back. He has a big thirst for life. We should applaud this but always we feel sad for the little sick ones. Our failures loom into our bright successes blocking out their sun.
I feel I am letting you down when we were so high on the delight of it – rescuing these wee cats and now things are going wrong. I spoke to the vet and as usual he asks a few questions and says – Just keep doing what you are doing and see how he is tomorrow.
So tomorrow I am taking the day off from the blog. I need to regroup and find my happy again. I have not even had time to answer all your glorious comments – I do apologise. It is not only the cats, I think I am tired and achy and aimed straight at a Washing Basket Moment if I don’t give myself a stern talking to. Did I mention that cats make my nose run, my eyes itch and my head hurt? This is why I don’t have inside cats anymore. I have worked hard this summer, filling the freezers and cellar with food, winter is coming and I am not ready. I need to get the tractor out tomorrow and concentrate on the barn and bringing the ark across and work on the gardens and shift the pig fence. Already I feel better confessing this all to you. Writing lists helps they say.
I hope you all have a good day.
I promise to be back on form tomorrow.
love your friend, celi.
ps, Just out of interest here is the Daily View exactly a year ago. Here is the walkabout post from that day. I need to mow the lawns as well.
And this post is from two years ago. Ah yes we go back that far many of you and I.
c
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64 responses to “grizzle, drizzle, fizzle”
Better to have tried than not with the kittens but it must be bloody frustrating to be so close and do so much, and yet…
We are in the unusual position of being close to your life, but not actually in it; a virtual neighborhood. Would that it could be otherwise. The ability to teleport and pop in and give you a hand would be lovely.
All our kind thoughts are with you 🙂
So sorry to read this, Celi. You did at least as much for those 2 as any vet would have done. It just wasn’t meant to be. Why not take a couple days off? Take a break and get some rest. We’ll be here when you get back.
I am so sorry Celi, you did as much as you could and you gave the weaker kittens a bit more life than they would have otherwise experienced. You are a lovely person and we’ll all be here for you when you feel well enough to return. I’m with John, you need to be well.
You don’t need to answer us, you don’t need to be there for us every day — we’re here for you and the farmy and you’re there for the farmy and your loved ones. That’s enough….stay strong. You can’t be superwoman every day…save it for, say, every Tuesday 😉
Oh C. Again I cannot say anymore than the rest of our Fellowship nor more eloquently…just hope you can feel all the love and hugs that have come your way today!
You could never let us down! Now please take care of yourself….we need you!
The biggest hug across the Pacific and the Rockies and all the land in between! Agree with Chgo John ~ we’ll be here . . . go let the sun and the wind act as a balm, put a tick to some of the work still necessary for winter and write again a few days down the track . . oh my, hasn’t the Daily View changed ~ beautiful!!
Today’s daily view brightened my mood! Thanks!
Dear Celi, I hope it’s several days before you get back to reading all these comments. I do hope, like everyone else, that you get some long sleeps, long rests, and long relaxing time doing NOthing for a few days… after all that giving, you need to give to yourself,
much love from New Zealand
Celi, have a good rest and retreat, and you don’t have to promise to be ANYTHING the next day.
Whatever you are is just right. You are depleted right now. No need to be upbeat. (Even when you are downbeat you are more upbeat than most people.)
I send you the tides of the ocean, with all of their wisdom, coming in and going out, coming in and going out. Your tide is out right now. Let it be. Lots of love.
Very sorry to hear that one of the kittens might not make it. It sounds like you are very tired 😦 I am sending you a big Bassa hug! xx
We always cheer for the underdog (or undercat) and hope they can win their race. But many feedings day and night have to be hard on you, as you always have more than enough on your plate. We appreciate your efforts to help these little ones who would not have had a fighting chance, otherwise. But you must take care of you, to be able to care for every other living thing on your farmy. Sending hugs, too.
Yes, as Bulldog says…..take a rest.
(& perhaps the kittens were ‘premature’ and there was no humicrib to pop them straight in to, so by the time you got to them, they were already on the down wood spiral).
You can’t do better than your best. Perhaps it’s time to ‘let go’ and allow Nature to take it’s course.
Take YOUR time my friend – you have a punishing schedule that most of us, if not all of us would struggle with. I know you introduced the kitties, I know you shared them with us, took on another project, but you can only do what you can do. Don’t feel responsible AT ALL for us. You are doing your best and that’s what counts. xxx – there you go you got three kisses today 🙂
Have some ME time Celi, you deserve it. x
You always do so much for so many, dear C–time to take care of yourself is necessary too, to make all of that possible. Know that you are loved. Be rested, be well.
xo
K
Bless you dear, tired, Celi. I really hope you’ll listen to your fatigue and rest as much as is possible, given the load of responsibilities that can’t be pushed aside. One of my most recent lessons came in the form of a bad fall, because I didn’t pay attention to the voice I’d already heard telling me to slow down. I hate it when that voice is right and I didn’t listen! 🙂 So listen, please. And as everyone else has said, we aren’t going anywhere. We just want you to be well. ox Debra