TWENTY days until I take off for Greece for a week. Merciful heavens I had better get a wriggle on. It is shocking how much slower I am without my help. I am simply not as driven. The gardens are way behind and yesterday I was sitting on the step with my head propped on my hands, my elbows propped on my knees staring at the sky. I can very easily achieve everything on my list but I just don’t feel the urgency yet.
And I hear you wanting to say but you need a rest and it is good to take it easy but those are platitudes designed to encourage laziness. To sit around reading books about Greece while the dishes pile up and the lawns are not mowed and dinner is not cooked, and the windows are filthy and the pig pen needs scraping out and the piglets need weaning and the electric fence needs building and cows need selling and the spring seeds need sowing, and there is something rotting my asparagus stems and with not one worthy thought in my head to write here in my daily journal? I need to get focused. Wandering from one thing to the next in this low grade haze achieves none of that.
Don’t get me wrong – I am perfectly happy to fall into slovenly ways. But I do know that when I finish my days after good solid toil and accomplishment I am happier.
Anyway today I will put up the electric fence for the big pigs and at least wean Poppy from her big fat babies. They have had a wonderful start and she seems perfectly happy to stand and feed them but it is time to take her and Sheila down the back and set them up for the summer.
And finally John brought home a new battery for the mower so I can mow the damn lawns. If I mow for an hour every day I keep the grounds looking nice, and I am way behind on mowing.
Today I will make a proper list! That will help. And at second breakfast I will get my calendar totally up to date – that always helps my brain too.
I am trying to work out what self motivates me – what is my trigger. How to light my own fire. Working alone with no emotional back-up is a whole other mind-set. Without a partner or coworker to say Good Job. This is hard. It needs lots of good self talk. Usually I have an endless stream of young people working with me. This is an excellent challenge for me this year – to become even more self reliant. It is good. I will work the problem and see where it leads me.
Twenty days until I leave for Greece. Time to “rattle the dags”
I hope you have a good day.
WEATHER: My hopes of getting hay in before I go to Greece are slowly receding. The fields are ready but now we have rain forecast frequently. On the weekend too so sileage is also out of the question. Today – clouds and showers. And warm too – the asparagus will grow fast today.
Monday 05/14 40% / 0.15 in
Partly cloudy with afternoon showers or thunderstorms. High 87F. SE winds shifting to SW at 10 to 20 mph. Chance of rain 40%.
Monday Night 05/14 80% / 0.24 in
Scattered thunderstorms early, then mainly cloudy overnight with thunderstorms likely. A few storms may be severe. Low 63F. Winds NW at 10 to 15 mph. Chance of rain 80%.
5:36 AM 8:02 PM
Waning Crescent, 1% visible 5:25 AM 7:11 PM