Because, on the weekend, he broke down two gates, and let the cows out again. So now he (FreeBee). The cows. And Jude. Are out in the field.
And will stay in this big one acre field for the foreseeable future. The barn is just unable to hold these enormous animals. These big pigs who can just lean on a gate and break the loss hinges, who stick their noses into the cracks and yank stuff apart. And I have no one to do the repairs. The barn has to wait ‘til I get back. Better that these animals have a whole big field.
Tomorrow I will get out the tractor and move the steel chicken tractor in there too – as another shelter for them.
We are having a cold snap but Jude and FreeBee are sleeping together in the little tin hut. It is a tight fit but they seem happy.
As I write both the big hogs are out grazing with the cows. Chewing from the spring salad bar.
Forgive me. But I have little else to say this morning. The big problems have taken over my small words.
Enough.
Have a really good solid day.
Once this mornings appointments for my elder are finished today I will seriously look at my packing.
Tomorrow is a full farm day: with help! Yay!
Celi
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21 responses to “FreeBee must be feeling Better”
I have been absent for a long time. Work. Work. So much work. I have missed you and the animals and the farm and the community of the farmy and the light and the open sky and the comings and goings and the stories. I hope you are OK. It sounds like traveling is in your near future. So I imagine you are already flying free in your mind. As one does. Anyway, I am back. Here. In this weird digital crossroad. x
I am ok. But I am desperate to be with people I can trust. Just as soon as I get all these animals (and people) situated.
P.S. I love it that you wish us a good “solid” day. Solid is such a good word. And my day has been solid, like a rock. A good one.
It is the best I can wish for too. I think tomorrow I will have a solid day.
The message is stronger each day that travel is needed. I clearly hear a limit is being reached in the words you are writing. I want you to have the best time away with family. I also hope that some thought and clarity slips in at times as well, focused on making things manageable or changeable perhaps, on final return. I don’t like it when my friends are carrying heavy loads and it seems there is not much I can do except send armless hugs over the internet.
All ‘armless and friendly. Thank you for your hugs. I am ready. But also afraid. There are so many dikes with my fingers in them. To step away worries me this time.
You will do your best and then, I hope, find a way to let things be what they will- to be sorted or not by others. Being responsible for the world is not to anyone’s advantage.
Oh if the barn only had a voice! Can you imagine the scolding those critters would get! 😉
Hugs CC.
Thank you Deb!
You have a really good solid day too. “The big problems have taken over my small words” Not very many words but they say so much.
Funny how the perfect line almost writes itself.
At least FreeBee can graze without Jude stealing his food! My wild ducks returned yesterday – definitely the same 3 as last year!1 Perhaps they are after the frogspawn in the pond.
Your travel cannot come soon enough
oh, CC. So many things people and animals rely upon you, but you must have a break and so you must rely on the fact that the things you have put into place will work and hold until you get back. I love working along with you on the farmy even though I have never lived on a farm and have never done any of the things you do each day. But the first email I read each day reminds me that there’s a big world out there with people doing so many different things. Can you relax and say that everything you can do has been done , and then get ready to start packing.
Everything will still be there when you get back refreshed from your travellers and meeting with your family. Hugs from afar.
Sometimes others perceive or project from their pov… During our last visit to my MiL before we set off on this trip we advised the care staff we were going on holidays. The staff, who return from their own holidays with tales of Fiji, Queensland getaways etc asked us where we were going. My reply… to visit with the rest of our family… gave them pause for thought. We have fingers in dikes but others have fingers too. Take care of yourself and get ready for your travels mentally & literally ♡
Sometimes you just have to let the juggled balls fall where they may. I hope everything sorts out for you. Best advice I’ve ever gotten: step back and breathe.
I will take all your advice Sherry. You have been through the wars. I have such respect for you. One day I am going to put Tima in the car and drive on up!
Such fun that would be!
One day soon, you’ll have to let it go and just trust. You’re just one person, and keep so many balls in the air. Giving out so much energy, you need and deserve to recharge. “All shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well.”
nice ! good read .
stay awesome and keep blogging
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