SO ANGRY

Last night Aunty Del gave birth to twins. But one was born dead.

I knew she was close, so I brought her into the barn and settled her. Then left to do some work and give her some time to relax – came back out not even an hour later and there was one little black heifer up already and one dead on the ground. He had not even moved from where birth had left him. He must have been born dead.

I was so angry. If only I had come back out a little earlier. And yes, I know that is a stupid thing to say. But. It was all very fast so there cannot have been any stress. He was perfect. But dead. I could not revive him.

Dead is dead – there is no coming back from it. No matter how one tries.

He was a good size, as is the little heifer. She was up and walking about and drinking by the time I left them.

I am so angry. So disappointed. Sad.

We had a lot of successes this season though – we must not forget that. And Aunty is happy with her baby.

But to lose a twin seems so awful somehow.

Later in the night, the calf was still a bit shivery so I put the little calf cover on her. I keep it (and the larger one) hanging on a hook in the barn so they always smells barny and not freshly washed.  It was cold enough for me to see my breath and it does not hurt to keep baby a little warmer.   I watched for a while and Del did not mind, she was licking babies head when I left them again.

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WEATHER: Rain is coming. Fitting. 

Saturday 11/04 70% / 0.14 in
Light rain early…then remaining cloudy with showers in the afternoon. Thunder possible. High around 55F. Winds SSE at 10 to 15 mph. Chance of rain 70%.

Saturday Night 11/04 60% / 0.06 in
Scattered thunderstorms developing overnight. Low around 50F. Winds light and variable. Chance of rain 60%.

Sun
7:27 am 5:44 pm
Moon
Full, 99% visible 6:35 pm 7:39 am

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