It was cold yesterday, below freezing, we left in the dark to drive up to the fairgrounds but even though there were crowds of people at the market, there was more a flea market feel to the affair, people sitting wrapped in blankets with the contents of their garages spread out before them. I felt my Happy seep out of me like a cold mist, down through my early morning shadow and away. 
The animals were cold, the people were cold. The birds were huddled into corners of their pens. There were more dogs for sale than I have ever seen which just felt wrong, and more sad looking ponies than usual too but the actual bird show part of the event was small. Everything felt just a little too visceral.
You know how sometimes your rose tinted happiness glasses slide down and reality shows itself like a dark low tide. And you just cannot cheer yourself up and find yourself more likely to snap your teeth at other people.
Well, that was yesterday. I bought my honey from my usual Michigan Eastern European couple with aprons under their coats. I bought a dozen Rhode island Red fertilised eggs from a man who I did not like, and just as the clouds covered the sun and the wind began to whip up – we left that place and went out to an old fashioned American diner to have an American breakfast so Inaki could order his eggs Sunny side UP. Then home again.
Later I sat in the sun room of the barn and had a big old talk with Sheila before we both had a Sunday nap in her hay bed, then I went to find Tima and helped her build a big cosy bed for the night. I watched Poppy for a long time but it is still impossible to tell if she is pregnant or not. More cold is coming. More wind is coming. There is even snow in the forecast for later this week.
Today will not be so bad though – I will look for loveliness today.
I hope you have a lovely day.
celi
The Kitchen's Garden 
33 responses to “No such Luck”
So, so sorry that Spring has not actually sprung in your neck of the woods! 😦 We have temps forecast in the upper 60s and 70s the rest of April. It just must be coming your way soon! The cold can definitely make things look grim, as seen at the bantam swayp, that’s for sure! Sending warm thoughts your way!!! XO
tho it was disappointing and leaning towards grim, i very much appreciate your honesty.
I hate that feeling where all you can see is the hard things, the mean things, the desperate things. It makes everything feel broken and awful. I’m glad Inaki got to have his eggs and that you had a nice nap in the hay. Those were both Good things. 🙂
some days aren’t worth getting up- today will be better I am sure! Big hugs!
It snowed here yesterday. My Matriarch doe was quite disheartened at morning feed, and didn’t want most of her bucket or even one roasted peanut…I tried to reassure her that Winter has not started all over again, and this will all be better in a couple of days. Then I went back to the house for an apple and fed her half, slice by slice, til she perked up enough to start waving her horns and bossing the others around. Whew.
A poor night’s sleep, and it’s snowing again today. Now I need someone to feed me apple slices.
I felt much the same yesterday, though it was a lovely day. Tangling with the evil dead tree soured my mood. Here’s to a better day, and we both know we can always find the loveliness, even though some days, we have to look pretty hard.
Even at the best of swaps there’s an undercurrent of sorrow.
Hope you at least had a good, big, American breakfast with biscuits, eggs, bacon, sausage and all the trimmings.
Please look in the mirror my sweet friend. There you will find loveliness all wrapped up in YOU. XOXO – Bacon
Awww, sounds like a miserable sale … I’m so sorry. Always disappointing, especially after looking forward to it for a while.
The weather? It’s crazy right now. We had, I would say, about 4 to 5 inches of fresh snow yesterday and it’s still at minus 5 c. right now, not expected to rise above the freezing point until Wednesday and even then waver up and down for the next few days after that. But that’s March/April in our neck of the woods, isn’t it — always unpredictable when we so need it to be warm and sunny after our long winters. I just think to myself that this winter-like weather is short-lived, given the time of year, and it brightens me up just a little. No matter what the weather does now, it soon — very soon — will be warm and sunny out there. Hope you have a lovely day too! ~ Mame 🙂
Our winter weather made it to you…but hang tight, warmth is on its way!
Linda
Ooo. That doesn’t sound good at all. Scary to think people are doing desperate things to sell living beings. It shouldn’t have to be that way. I’m glad you have such a warm place to come back to, as a reminder of what can be good in the world.
And as always, I’m eternally glad you share it with us and teach us how things could, should, and can be.
What a shame. A miserable day. Don’t let it drag you down, there is sunshine ahead ☺
I love the feeling of anticipation and possibilities of swap meets & markets, and the premise of local economy re-use recycle…. but sometimes they’re a let down full of cheap crap & junk. A good breakfast is the only solace. And a return home to your own space and good things.
The chill of season and spirit definitely shown in this post.
Grim. I’d have come home with a pony or horse….you could use a lawn decoration, I mean, horse
At least there’s honey!