Many things have been happening to people around me in the lately, so much sadness and injustice and tragedy, and though the farm and I are fine – many of the best people in my life are struggling and sad. This left me with no words for the last few days.
So I am finding my way back into the kitchens garden blog with pictures. 
And I am saving my words for the meantime.
BooBoo has been wearing his worrying face too.
One thing I want you to do for me – memorise a phone number. Do not rely on your cell phone. What if your cell phone were taken from you and you only had one phone call but no number in your head. Then you will be lost until I come to find you. I will find you but it will take longer if you have no number in your head to call. So memorise one number.
Life is full of change – don’t you think? We get so complacent.
I feel so helpless often – so far away from my birth place people.
I hope you have a lovely day – I really do wish this for you.
celi
The Kitchen's Garden 
83 responses to “Finding my way back”
In some ways, it’s harder for me to deal with the pain and tragedies of those I care about than my own problems. I feel so helpless to do anything meaningful to make things better for them. Take care of yourself, take the time you need.
I am so sorry Celi. So sorry that you are feeling sad and far away from your roots. I feel shaky most of the time; things feel so fragile, so maybe I understand a little of what you are going through. These are the times that I find our digital networks both good and lacking. I can offer you all my love, hope and encouragement. But I cannot look you in the eye wordlessly or hold your hand.
I am so sorry and I understand how you both feel. My heart is broken right now and all I can do is stare across the ocean and go on with my life. Hugs !
And how I would love to do this as well. Much love, Your Gayle
Good advice about that phone number. Take care, darling.
African sunshine filled healing hugs and love to you Celi.
xoxoxo
I’ve always kept a paper copy of the numbers in my phone, but never had taken that next step of memorizing one or two. Thanks for the prod. And thanks, too, for being here, even in the midst of your sadness and grief (and perhaps even anger?) so that we can be here for you.
❤
Hugs to you from Canada. I know how difficult it is having family thousands of miles away but the loved ones that are ill or hurting in the same house bring just as much stress and worry, if not more. This is not meant to minimize your pain. I remember all too well the evening my sisters and I frantically phoned each other trying to figure out what was happening to our mother who was in a hospital in Mexico while on vacation. Make time for yourself and your sweet animals. Thank you for sharing these wonderful photos.
Wishing you and yours strength and healing.
We stand with and beside and all around you Miss C. Please draw on the strength of all of those you touch every day with this blog to help you on this journey. And let our voices carry you when you don’t have the words… {{{{Many, many hugs}}}}
I have my husband and my work number memorized. Sadly – I had my parents number memorized – but it rings to an empty building now. Empty but for material items and memories.
2016 will go down and the worst year of my life – so I agree with you bad things are happening. FAITH and people depending on me make me move forward. Our daily grind is what sustains us I think. You milking the cows – me driving 30+ miles to work. You feeding the pigs – me making sure peoples pay is processed. Small – repeating tasks – but there is such comfort there when chaos surrounds us.
Lean in to the repetitive… When Mom passed someone told me that and it is so very true. I have found some of myself again with it…
I’m here if you want to talk … Texas is here if you want to R-U-N-N-O-F-T…. but most of all – know we on this blog all care…..
Lovely and excellent words, Pat. Thank you so much for sharing your life with us at all times. Much love, Your Gayle
Thank you for the advice. Hopes and prayers for the sadness to fall away quickly from you and yours. Your pictures are lovely and peaceful. Sometimes we feel like BooBoo looks. A hug goes a long way. Peace.
I’m so sorry that you are having sadness in your life , the hardest thing is to watch the people you love suffer in any way. I will pray for you and yours to have better days. I wish I could take your troubles away. Sending hugs your way.
My heart goes out to you, Miss C…life is fragile, but full of strong strings of cobweb love tying us all together.
Hugs,
Linda
What lovely imagery, Linda! Thanks so much. Much love, Your Gayle
I hope things are happier for you soon.
I was worried when we didn’t hear from you and now am so sorry your loved ones are suffering and so far away. It has been a ghastly summer for so many of us it seems. Even as I write my husband and I are waiting on a biopsy report–won’t know until the 30th.