Rain in the winter makes me unsettled, especially a LOT of rain with thunder but no lightning in what should be a frozen mid winter. Though there has to be lightning somewhere as the lightning actually creates the thunder. However yesterday and last night we had lots of rain, dense fog and some thunder but no lightening of the skies. In an ordinary climate rain in the winter would be normal but here we are trained to expect ice and snow, not a couple of days of warm rain.
However it is water in the ground and that is a good thing. It is unusually warm and wet for January. But this will change in a few days of course. Hopefully before any buds appear on the trees. This has happened before too.
Victoria is here, which is good as yesterday I was suffering from one of my infrequent ice pick headaches. Some people call them the ice pick migraine. Otherwise known, by me before I knew what they were, as The Bad Head. I have always had headaches and this is a nastiest headache of them all. It happens maybe once or twice a year. It just keeps jabbing and jabbing for seconds at a time, every few minutes, sometimes four or five hits within a minute, at random intervals for a day and sometime two or three days and one cannot help but cringe every time the ice pick hits. There is no warning. The pain is so strong that sometimes it makes your knees go. It is very hard to keep ones face calm.
I only mention this as I only recently found out what this headache is, up until now I simply never mentioned them to anyone because I did not want to sound pathetic, but yesterday was particularly bad, the random ice pick jabbing at my head all day long. Cringing and ducking away from the pain before I can stop myself. By the end of the day I felt sick with it all. And if you get them as well, I am here to say you are not alone and there is nothing you can do but wait until bed time then lay your head down. A still head seems to cope with the Bad Head better. It is a primary headache, in that it is not a symptom of anything else. The pain is the whole thing.
And it is still knifing into me at irregular this morning.
I have read them described as harmless which makes me want to give the author of that sentence a fast jab to the head with my metaphorical pick axe.
Now that I know what this is called, and know that other people get them as well, I don’t feel so bad somehow. The pain is still untenable but it is not threatening to kill me now. It has a name and company. Isn’t that just human nature.
You know I do not want messages of sympathy – I am only telling you this in case one of you has the same headaches and you might like company! Or at least know that you are not alone. And yes I know misery likes company. Tomorrow will be better.
It may begin to lessen today. But resting does not help, it is just an endurance test. So, after we have finished all the chores Victoria and I are going to gather everything necessary to make this years soap.
I hope you have a lovely day,