“If in Doubt ..

… leave it Out.”

That is what my Dad used to say and it holds true every single time. For me at least. Doubt is often a warning.

“Think a little more.” Doubt says.

“Maybe you should say, No.” Doubt says. NO is an important word. And we should use it more often. Gently but firmly of course.


Yesterday we all drove over to have a look at the little llama. Megan, Hugo and I. We wandered about a lovely little farm and met all the animals and especially the Llamas. cows

Do you remember how Tima (the naughty fat kunekune pig who does not look pregnant at all) actually walked up to me when I went to collect her as a 6 week old gilt.  I had chosen her from a photograph but she chose me when she saw me. The same with Poppy who was a runt and being sold cheap, hugging the fence dogging my steps waiting for me to pick her up and take her.  TonTon came running to me as I entered the barn to choose him from the litter of pups.  Well the little Llama took no notice of me at all. And I realised as I drove away that I had not even taken my camera out of the car.  The lack of notice had been mutual.

I worried and worried over the decision then said – No.  “If in doubt – leave it out.”She was not the animal for me. We had not connected. And once I made that decision I felt much better.  You know how sometimes you make a decision and there is instant relief, the pressure is off – then you know you made the right decision.

Yesterday the Hereford pigs were divided and are now in the fields that they will stay in for a while. The Plonkers are in the salad bar field. The gilts (Molly and Tahiti) are in the central barn next to Sheila and Poppy who are back in their winter quarters. When Molly and Tahiti are a little older they will join Sheila and Poppy.


When Sheila realised she was being led back to her winter quarters she paused on the threshold of the barn  and said Me? I can come home now?  She looked so pleased to be back in her old house. Her little eyes held mine as she paused for such a long time and she just grinned.  Her face it up. The she hauled her massive frame up the step and down the barn corridor and turned into her room with such obvious delight.  She immediately began to push all the straw up into her favourite top bunk and laid down with a big sigh. I love Sheila.

peahen flying

I hope you have a lovely day.

Your friend on the farm


41 Comments on ““If in Doubt ..

  1. What a darling Sheila is… as well as the adorable Tima and Tane.. and Boo… and Ton-ton.. and Uncle Tom Cobbly an’ all !!!
    Think you’re so right about the llama – I actually had my doubts !!!

  2. Llamas are Lovely, alpacas are Adorable, but it has to feel right. Your own know you, and if you weren’t recognised, she or he wasn’t Yours.
    Just look at that lineup of Farmy Boys – what a pity Hugo wasn’t there to join in!

  3. You must be disappointed, but you made the right decision. Perhaps a more Celie-friendly llama will turn up, and you will be glad you waited. If you need a guard animal, have you thought of geese? They are mucky birds, but great guard-dogs.

    Those pigs are all such characters – I love ’em all.

    Lots of love,
    ViV xox

  4. The header shot…dappled is what that is! Beautiful. Good to go with your gut. It often knows best. Good girl Sheila, back home. Lovely day to you.

  5. My mother had a llama farm. Not really sure what she farmed exactly, but she did love llamas and had a lot of them. She named them all after her favorite chocolates and candy. She passed a few years back and my dad has been caring for the llamas ever since. It is a bit comical, in a way, because it’s not his “thing”, but when I think of llamas, I think of mom. She did spin the wool and now I have one of her spinning wheels, so I hope to learn that skill before long. They are beautiful animals, quiet and protective of their herd, but they can be stand offish, so you are right to seek a connection, because it will make the process much more enjoyable.

  6. Llamas are definitely a challenge. We started with a gelding and a female, and the female turned out to be nothing but trouble! After we re-homed her, the gelding was wonderful, but not easy to handle till he got a little older.

  7. You know when it’s right my friend. I firmly believed that. I picked my mommy. When it’s right, it’s right. No doubts. Hogs and snout kisses. XOXO – Bacon

  8. That inner voice is too often ignored and it should not be. That is the voice of your experience and I believe the voices of your loved ones passed. Oh, I talk to my dearly departed Aunt when that inner voice is talking to me. It has the sound of her voice so I feel like she is with me during these times. She was the ‘wise’ one as was my grandmother, her mother.

    I’m not a fan of any of the camel/llama/alpaca family. Spitter’s can live with someone else. I had a couple of bad run in’s with these critters.

    Sheila is so adorable…..Never thought I would say that of a pig. 😉

  9. I think you made the right decision. Ilammas can be a handful. I agree with you, we should follow our instincts more often.

  10. I think I’ve heard that donkeys are good for guarding animals in the field. Might that be a possibility? xo

    • I don’t think so – I will just keep the little ones closer to home.. though I do worry about the calves across the way. I think a guardian dog would be a better bet.. c

      • Yes, that would work, just so he doesn’t decide he would rather follow you home and become part of your dog family there!

  11. It sounds like you definitely made the right decision about the llama. We have to trust our guts, our instinct, our intuition. Yours was telling you this was not right and you had the evidence to back it.

  12. I’m glad with you that you are content with your Llama decision. You described it so very well, I know that relief too once a decision is made. Sometimes loads fell off your shoulders.
    I like the photo with the wood – well done, good work. So well prepared for winter now. I imagine you sitting at the open fire place and the very special warmth it spends…
    Great shot of Geraldine in the air (it’s her, it’s not her?). How do you manage to get so clear full in motion pictures?
    Nice conversation with Sheila you had…
    I hope you have a lovely day too, Celi.

  13. Good decision. Sweet Sheila, so happy she’s in her happy spot. I had no idea that the kunekune were as large as they are until seeing the shot of the dogs, and especially TonTon, with Tane. That startled me because I’ve always thought of them as smaller and shorter. Great pics.

  14. That kind of instinct/intuition is such a great guide in life. When there is no connection or bond, then best to leave it be. I loved the photographs today. It is a time of seasonal change and with it comes some easier days to enjoy and look forward to the season to come. Your photographs and narration depict this change of season rhythm. 🙂

  15. Your description of Sheila’s delight in discovering she was going “home” gave me goosebumps. And the fact that she immediately went about making her bed so she could lie in it made me laugh.

  16. I love all your animals- and you made such a wise, wise decision re: the llama- obviously you weren’t to have this one! Cheers and have a lovely day!

  17. It’s good to keep an open mind, especially when adding a new animal. Little Llama wasn’t the right one for the farm.

    Sheila. I KNEW her first move would be to make her bed. When I move into a new place, the first thing that has to be sorted is the bedroom.

  18. It seems your Dad knows a thing or two! I would go with a donkey instead of a llama anyway…they don’t spit! 🙂
    Love that photo of Ton, Boo and Tane and the firewood…Beautiful!

    • I suspect a donkey would “fit” better anyway. The ones I’ve met over the years were all interesting characters, most very friendly and interested in all those they lived with.

  19. You know you have made the right decision, whether making a choice or choosing to make no choice at all, when you feel that shift. I’m juggling a few balls at the moment and have taken to leaving them in the air until I get that feeling.
    I’m with Sheila, there’s no place like home and my own comfy -made every morning- bed 🙂

  20. I’m all for the donkey though my guy is a mini and wouldn’t stand a chance with a pack of coyotes, he is a sweetie. That said, the raccoons seem to be avoiding our place now, knock wood. With animals you simply must go with your gut. When I got Mac he was 9 months old and when we walked into his foster’s house he was absolutely wild, leaping and running and chewing on our hands and whatever else he could reach. My John was visibly alarmed when I said yes I’d take him. We turned him loose in the fenced back yard and he ran as hard and as fast as he could for about eight laps. It took a while but with a two mile walk four or five times a week and some consistent instruction my Macadoodle Schnoodle is a wonderful guy. I love him very much!

  21. Your instinct spoke up. Can you a imagine Tima and Poppy teaching a little llama their naughty ways? I love the low sunlight on the logs

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