No such Luck

It was cold yesterday, below freezing, we left in the dark to drive up to the fairgrounds  but even though there were crowds of people at the market, there was more a flea market feel to the affair, people sitting wrapped in blankets with the contents of their garages spread out before them.  I felt my Happy seep out of me like a cold mist, down through my early morning shadow and away. 

The animals were cold, the people were cold. The birds were huddled into corners of their pens. There were more dogs for sale than I have ever seen which just felt wrong, and more sad looking ponies than usual too but the actual bird show part of the event was small. Everything felt just a little too visceral.

You know how sometimes your rose tinted happiness glasses slide down and reality shows itself like a dark low tide. And you just cannot cheer yourself up and find yourself more likely to snap your teeth at other people.

Well, that was yesterday. I bought my honey from my usual Michigan Eastern European couple with aprons under their  coats. I bought a dozen Rhode island Red fertilised eggs from a man who I did not like, and just as the clouds covered the sun and the wind began to whip up  – we left that place and went out to an old fashioned American diner to have an American breakfast so Inaki could order his eggs Sunny side UP.  Then home again.

Later I sat in the sun room  of the barn and had a big old talk with Sheila before we both had a Sunday nap in her hay bed,  then I went to find Tima and helped her build a big cosy bed for the night.  I watched Poppy for a long time but it is still impossible to tell if she is pregnant or not. More cold is coming. More wind is coming. There is even snow in the forecast for later this week.

Today will not be so bad though – I will look for loveliness today.

I hope you have a lovely day.

celi